Time goes by so fast

I don't know how it has been 3 months but it has flown by. How did it all pass by so quickly. 3 months!!!
I think the reason i have been avoiding this is because it didn't know where to start. There has been so much. This summer was........ amazing, a growing experience, and a time of adventure, change and reflexion.

It is amazing how things work out hey? What seemed like the end of the world 3 months ago is now, after random twists and turns, so much better that I thought could ever happen. Im so lucky and can never really grasp why or how I got here to this point but it is crazy how life just keeps moving even if you think it has stopped. Something or one out there doesn't let you just sit there and actually press pause. It just keeps going with or without you. And that is kinda comforting. IF YOU DON'T LIKE TODAY WAIT FOR TOMORROW!

I am so ready and excited for the future. Friends, Family, Exploring, Learning, and Feeling!
I want to experience it all. This is are time on this planet and honestly we don't get long so lets get everything we can from it. From the warmth of another to the raindrops on my nose!

Friends are amazing and we are so lucky to be able to experience relationships and feelings to the extent that we do.

There is so many moments that have passed lately that I want to share and update this blog with but I would have to write a novel so I want to just leave some photos that speak for themselves. These are some moments I 'll never forget. Thanks for the great times!!!

No Happy Ending

I don't know whats happening.
Chest hurts, I can't find enough air.
The room is shaking,
and I can't hold myself up.
Through blurry eyes the world spins.
I reach out to grab your hand to find
comfort and stroke that familiar scar
but its not there.
I hear your voice and I seem ok.
But I'm not.
There is a hole that only you can fill.
I'll never regret that time.
You are so much apart of me.
Did I tell you how wonderful you
are enough? That you deserve the
best out there.
I feel lost. Where do I go?
What do I do? Why am I alone?
I can't believe that story is done.
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Driving on the highway tears start to flood.......

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
-Happy Ending MIKA

Grande Prairie

HOME SWEET HOME!!!!!





Well I just finished eating a mouth-watering bbq meal and am so full that I can barely make it to my room. So I figured it would be a good time to update. It's been a while. Lots has happened. Its good to be home seeing old friends and comforting places. Well where to start?
The trip back was long......but good. We made good time and stopped for a couple of nights in Edmonton and chilled with Kels and Amanda. Good times there reuniting over yummy food and booze.
Next was 2 week of settling in and jumping right back in to the dance studio here. I helped with dress rehearsal and pictures and worked backstage for their 4 year end shows. they also asked me to perform two solos in the shows so that was awesome. That kept me very busy and I loved it. It was good to see all my old dancer friends.
Next was my brothers grad. I can't believe my baby bro is done! It makes me feel so old! While it was lots of fun to see him get all fancied up in his tux and his cap and grad. He was quite good looking. The best of the crowd in my thoughts!
then I started working as a office girl at a doctors office.
Thats pretty slack! So its a good summer job. Just filing, bank runs and phones.
I also got my photographing job back. I haven't started that yet. Next week!
And in two weeks I start teaching dance summer school! Its 5 or 6 days a week! I'm teaching Hip hop, Stretch and cardio, Modern and Jazz. It should be lots of fun. I can't wait!!!
Other than that I'm just relaxing with the fam, drinking and dancing with friends,CAMPING LOTS and enjoying the sun. I miss all you island peeps sooooooooooooo much and can't wait to come back. I hope you are all having a blast on that beautiful chunk of land you live on!
Sending love and hugs!!!!!
xoxox




















Me and my handsome Bro!

So this is it. My last night on the island. How can i
leave.......... look at this. It's gorgeous! And right out
my back door. All I can say is it's gonna be a long 2
and a half months away. I am counting down the days
till I''m back. I love it here. It's been an incredible year.
My leaving is kinda bittersweet though because
it will be good to see my family.
Its my brothers grad next weekend and also my dance
studios year end recital so I will get to see all my old
students and work back stage with them! YAAAHHH!
I miss them all so much and it will be exciting to see how
much they have grown over the year. I also got a job at
a eye doctors office! And i hope to pick up extra shifts
at my old photography job. And I'm the guest dance
teacher at Dans Connection's Summer School. And
I'm a bridesmaid for my friend Danae's wedding!
So I shall be very busy this summer but that
will make the time fly by b4 I return to this beautiful
island. SO I'm off to red neck ville tomorrow!
Have a great summer guys! Love ya xoxox

Hey You!

Well I don't know what to say.
I fucked up! You know who you are.
I sent you mixed signals
and played with your mind. I did like
you a lot but i was just confused and
in a spot in my life were i didn't know
what i wanted. I hadn't been single in
a long time and I felt the need to just have
fun not realizing the consequences would
hurt you. It was selfish and I honestly
didn't mean to hurt you. I wanted to let lose
and live never thinking about the others
involved. I'm so sorry and know that I
did really enjoy our chats and time together.
You are amazing and I hope we can
chill in the future.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmm! What a beautiful sight! My first( of many) camping trips of the year.
What a perfect way to start out the season. Not to cold, nice and relaxin and full of crazy times! The adventure began with me packing up the car and heading out to what i thought was an easy find campsite. Not quite true. I ended up lost on some random dirt road in the pitch black with no cell service. So because I have seen way to many horror movies for my own good I started to panic and was convinced that I was the next damsel in distress who was about to have her tires slashed and be carried away to have my finger bit off. Crazy I know! Those damn movie nights at Spencers. Well after what seemed like forever i finally met up with ky and maddie and they guided me the safety of the campfire.
Our next chapter was maddie and I's dymanic duo tent set-up in the dark. It was tricky but with the help of gregories light holding skills we finished with no big complications other than a sticky zipper and a lost fly. In the end we had a warm double bed with a beautiful orange tarp to act as a fly and help us locate our tent in the dark. So with our tent set up we were ready to party.

"LET THERE BE MUSIC" said the biffer

Chillin by the flame

Jilly and her expert marshmallow skills
Gregoires epic pizza cooker

Biff almost too excited bout his
handcrafted dog stick

The next 48 are a blur of laying in the sun, hot dogs, marshmallows, Ciesta 1pm, booze(lots of booze) pee-parades, birds, biff's epic music set-up, TEA, more booze, Lunch lady land, getting lost in the bush, losing my hat, snuggling with maddie, chilling by the fire, good conversations and all in all GOOD TIMES!!

Thanks for an awesome camping trip guys!

Here to many more crazy times in the bush!

Mosquito's Tweeter

A new place, a new studio and new faces.
Different crowd, different waiting room,
different backstage traditions, different vibe,
and different pieces to make up one movement!
So unsure of my new surroundings at first.
Where was the amazing group i had for 13 years before?
We knew how to read each other, de-stress each other and work
with each other like that back of our hands. You knew everything
about me. I have slowly learned this year that although i had the time
of my life dancing with my old team,
its not who your dancing with but
how your growing and expanding as a dancer yourself.
I really had a chance this year with a new studio to realize
how much i love dancing and what i was really willing
to do to keep on dancing. Dancing means the world to me.
This new group forced me to get over my myself
and fight for my spotlight.
I loved dancing with you guys this year,
thanks so much for sharing the stage with me

Saying Goodbye to an Incredible Year

WoW!
I can't believe my first year at Malaspina is almost over! I blinked and now there is only 2 weeks left. Where did it go? Pretty soon we will be heading our separate way for the summer. Or even worse for ever. I can't imagine school without you guys. We are a family! Why are we breaking up. Whats really crazy is that I only met all of you less than 8 months ago! How did we get so close? Now i can't imagine not knowing you. So many good times this year. I can't even count them. You are amazing and I treasure all of them( good, bad and epic) and love and treasure the program. You all know who you are. You all know the epic moments that i have shared with you and i am so lucky to know you.

Maddy- You know your my favorite. Ever since we bonded as "dancers" at the pirate party. you are amazing and i treasure are friendship close to my heart. You are my second half here on the island and just know that you are gorgeous and I look up to you so much. Hot cops and sexy scrubs 4-ever

Zeus- I value your friendship and opinions incredibly. You are so funny and I have enjoyed our chats thoughout the year. You are amazing and beautiful. I love chillin with and you are one of my bestest buddies here. I love you and look forward to next year with u. Ya for Japan trip!!!

Jilly- You remind me of sunshine. A little cheesy i know but its true. It doesn't matter what drama everyone is in, you are always cheery and accepting. I take comfort in your friendship and love your upbeat self. Ocean Monster Buddies till the end!!!!

Lisa- You are beautiful. What more can i say. Inside and out. I know we didn't get to complete all our adventures but we still have time and I am excited. I really think Victoria was our best moment and thank god for that because that was our weekend. I love ya girl. Scotch and jazz!!

Brianna- Good times at you place. You are so welcoming and fun. I love hanging with you and think you genuinely care about your gals. It is an honor to be part of the gang. Frozen car doors, cat litter and snowy martinis!
*Ok I'll admit that the tears have started. How am i gonna last dry eyed for two more weeks.

Tasia- You are wonderful. I feel that we haven't bonded as much as i have with the other gals. So i am excited for next year. We need to hang out more. And make more rice wrap and bean crud thingys!!

Spencer- My little bro. Well i am very protective of you so that should say how much u meant to me. U are amazing and I love you. We have sooooooooo much in common. Europe summer trips, relationship craziness and well pretty much everything else. I'll miss you this summer. xoxo

Devin- My hubby. Well its been some crazy times! U are so talented and determined. Never lose your edge and you will go far. I love you and am lucky to be married to you. More Vic and Van to come. Will and Grace forever!!
Mela- Mom!!! You are a breath of fresh air and I love you even if you read me scary stories.
Jo- Your smokin hot and I can't wait for next year with ya!
Ashley- Your bubbly attitude makes me happy
Now for the hard ones....................THE SECOND YEARS!!!
Ky- Wow i don't know where to start. Well there has been some interesting times. But I think the world of you and want you to know I love ya and really did enjoy the crazy ride of a year with ya. I hope you have a great year next year and hope i get to chill with you next year. Cardboard forts and running crew warriors for ever!!


Biffer- We have had some super good times this year. Thanks for our random but meaningful chats. You really helped me realize a lot this year. You are one that I will miss humongously next year. Who will i sort out all life's problems with? We need to hang out next year.

Gregoire- You are awesome. How will i go without Gregoire hugs next year? You are an amazing actor and i loved watchin u hold the stage. I'll miss your laugh and hugs that i am so use to having daily.
Davies- You better still be around next year. Who else will i own the dance floor with? Your so much fun and I will miss you tons around the theatre. You are a great friend and it won't be the same with out you.
Lisa V- You are so creative. I have enjoyed getting to know you. You are so much fun and I really am gonna miss ya. Pepper and salt shakers for life!!
Kaitlyn- I love your energy and smiles. I'll miss ya
Amber- You are fabulous! Good luck in everything you do
Alleah- I have had some good times with ya. I will miss ya and hope to get a chance to go to school with ya again......ccpa????
Michelle- You always light up a room. I love ya girl.
Megan- I look up to you in so many ways and think you are amazing!
James- You always keep me laughing. Good luck in everything you do!!
Alex- You are so talented and I hope we get to hang out more next year.
SO in conclusion I have had an awesome year and I love all of ya. Thank you so much for all the crazy good times and adventures. TO U ALL: Either i can't wait for new adventures next year or am going to miss you incredibly and wish u all the luck in the world. Thanks for making my first year amazing. Hugs and kisses to the Malaspina Theatre program!!!