So this is it. My last night on the island. How can i
leave.......... look at this. It's gorgeous! And right out
my back door. All I can say is it's gonna be a long 2
and a half months away. I am counting down the days
till I''m back. I love it here. It's been an incredible year.
My leaving is kinda bittersweet though because
it will be good to see my family.
Its my brothers grad next weekend and also my dance
studios year end recital so I will get to see all my old
students and work back stage with them! YAAAHHH!
I miss them all so much and it will be exciting to see how
much they have grown over the year. I also got a job at
a eye doctors office! And i hope to pick up extra shifts
at my old photography job. And I'm the guest dance
teacher at Dans Connection's Summer School. And
I'm a bridesmaid for my friend Danae's wedding!
So I shall be very busy this summer but that
will make the time fly by b4 I return to this beautiful
island. SO I'm off to red neck ville tomorrow!
Have a great summer guys! Love ya xoxox

Hey You!

Well I don't know what to say.
I fucked up! You know who you are.
I sent you mixed signals
and played with your mind. I did like
you a lot but i was just confused and
in a spot in my life were i didn't know
what i wanted. I hadn't been single in
a long time and I felt the need to just have
fun not realizing the consequences would
hurt you. It was selfish and I honestly
didn't mean to hurt you. I wanted to let lose
and live never thinking about the others
involved. I'm so sorry and know that I
did really enjoy our chats and time together.
You are amazing and I hope we can
chill in the future.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmm! What a beautiful sight! My first( of many) camping trips of the year.
What a perfect way to start out the season. Not to cold, nice and relaxin and full of crazy times! The adventure began with me packing up the car and heading out to what i thought was an easy find campsite. Not quite true. I ended up lost on some random dirt road in the pitch black with no cell service. So because I have seen way to many horror movies for my own good I started to panic and was convinced that I was the next damsel in distress who was about to have her tires slashed and be carried away to have my finger bit off. Crazy I know! Those damn movie nights at Spencers. Well after what seemed like forever i finally met up with ky and maddie and they guided me the safety of the campfire.
Our next chapter was maddie and I's dymanic duo tent set-up in the dark. It was tricky but with the help of gregories light holding skills we finished with no big complications other than a sticky zipper and a lost fly. In the end we had a warm double bed with a beautiful orange tarp to act as a fly and help us locate our tent in the dark. So with our tent set up we were ready to party.

"LET THERE BE MUSIC" said the biffer

Chillin by the flame

Jilly and her expert marshmallow skills
Gregoires epic pizza cooker

Biff almost too excited bout his
handcrafted dog stick

The next 48 are a blur of laying in the sun, hot dogs, marshmallows, Ciesta 1pm, booze(lots of booze) pee-parades, birds, biff's epic music set-up, TEA, more booze, Lunch lady land, getting lost in the bush, losing my hat, snuggling with maddie, chilling by the fire, good conversations and all in all GOOD TIMES!!

Thanks for an awesome camping trip guys!

Here to many more crazy times in the bush!

Mosquito's Tweeter

A new place, a new studio and new faces.
Different crowd, different waiting room,
different backstage traditions, different vibe,
and different pieces to make up one movement!
So unsure of my new surroundings at first.
Where was the amazing group i had for 13 years before?
We knew how to read each other, de-stress each other and work
with each other like that back of our hands. You knew everything
about me. I have slowly learned this year that although i had the time
of my life dancing with my old team,
its not who your dancing with but
how your growing and expanding as a dancer yourself.
I really had a chance this year with a new studio to realize
how much i love dancing and what i was really willing
to do to keep on dancing. Dancing means the world to me.
This new group forced me to get over my myself
and fight for my spotlight.
I loved dancing with you guys this year,
thanks so much for sharing the stage with me

Saying Goodbye to an Incredible Year

WoW!
I can't believe my first year at Malaspina is almost over! I blinked and now there is only 2 weeks left. Where did it go? Pretty soon we will be heading our separate way for the summer. Or even worse for ever. I can't imagine school without you guys. We are a family! Why are we breaking up. Whats really crazy is that I only met all of you less than 8 months ago! How did we get so close? Now i can't imagine not knowing you. So many good times this year. I can't even count them. You are amazing and I treasure all of them( good, bad and epic) and love and treasure the program. You all know who you are. You all know the epic moments that i have shared with you and i am so lucky to know you.

Maddy- You know your my favorite. Ever since we bonded as "dancers" at the pirate party. you are amazing and i treasure are friendship close to my heart. You are my second half here on the island and just know that you are gorgeous and I look up to you so much. Hot cops and sexy scrubs 4-ever

Zeus- I value your friendship and opinions incredibly. You are so funny and I have enjoyed our chats thoughout the year. You are amazing and beautiful. I love chillin with and you are one of my bestest buddies here. I love you and look forward to next year with u. Ya for Japan trip!!!

Jilly- You remind me of sunshine. A little cheesy i know but its true. It doesn't matter what drama everyone is in, you are always cheery and accepting. I take comfort in your friendship and love your upbeat self. Ocean Monster Buddies till the end!!!!

Lisa- You are beautiful. What more can i say. Inside and out. I know we didn't get to complete all our adventures but we still have time and I am excited. I really think Victoria was our best moment and thank god for that because that was our weekend. I love ya girl. Scotch and jazz!!

Brianna- Good times at you place. You are so welcoming and fun. I love hanging with you and think you genuinely care about your gals. It is an honor to be part of the gang. Frozen car doors, cat litter and snowy martinis!
*Ok I'll admit that the tears have started. How am i gonna last dry eyed for two more weeks.

Tasia- You are wonderful. I feel that we haven't bonded as much as i have with the other gals. So i am excited for next year. We need to hang out more. And make more rice wrap and bean crud thingys!!

Spencer- My little bro. Well i am very protective of you so that should say how much u meant to me. U are amazing and I love you. We have sooooooooo much in common. Europe summer trips, relationship craziness and well pretty much everything else. I'll miss you this summer. xoxo

Devin- My hubby. Well its been some crazy times! U are so talented and determined. Never lose your edge and you will go far. I love you and am lucky to be married to you. More Vic and Van to come. Will and Grace forever!!
Mela- Mom!!! You are a breath of fresh air and I love you even if you read me scary stories.
Jo- Your smokin hot and I can't wait for next year with ya!
Ashley- Your bubbly attitude makes me happy
Now for the hard ones....................THE SECOND YEARS!!!
Ky- Wow i don't know where to start. Well there has been some interesting times. But I think the world of you and want you to know I love ya and really did enjoy the crazy ride of a year with ya. I hope you have a great year next year and hope i get to chill with you next year. Cardboard forts and running crew warriors for ever!!


Biffer- We have had some super good times this year. Thanks for our random but meaningful chats. You really helped me realize a lot this year. You are one that I will miss humongously next year. Who will i sort out all life's problems with? We need to hang out next year.

Gregoire- You are awesome. How will i go without Gregoire hugs next year? You are an amazing actor and i loved watchin u hold the stage. I'll miss your laugh and hugs that i am so use to having daily.
Davies- You better still be around next year. Who else will i own the dance floor with? Your so much fun and I will miss you tons around the theatre. You are a great friend and it won't be the same with out you.
Lisa V- You are so creative. I have enjoyed getting to know you. You are so much fun and I really am gonna miss ya. Pepper and salt shakers for life!!
Kaitlyn- I love your energy and smiles. I'll miss ya
Amber- You are fabulous! Good luck in everything you do
Alleah- I have had some good times with ya. I will miss ya and hope to get a chance to go to school with ya again......ccpa????
Michelle- You always light up a room. I love ya girl.
Megan- I look up to you in so many ways and think you are amazing!
James- You always keep me laughing. Good luck in everything you do!!
Alex- You are so talented and I hope we get to hang out more next year.
SO in conclusion I have had an awesome year and I love all of ya. Thank you so much for all the crazy good times and adventures. TO U ALL: Either i can't wait for new adventures next year or am going to miss you incredibly and wish u all the luck in the world. Thanks for making my first year amazing. Hugs and kisses to the Malaspina Theatre program!!!

Soft words

The woods it speaks to me
With a calm and soft melody
One of acceptance and condolence
Telling to the depths of the heart will return no such a consequence
The woods you understand me inside and out
When fear overcomes I have no doubt
You are protecting me with your gracious might
Your presence is observant day or night
The woods it speaks to me
Now our connection is everlasting
For it is where I am resting forevermore happily.
By Robert K. Lehnhof

I got to explore Cathedral Grove this weekend. It was amazing and beautiful. The trees and moss were such a vivid green that it felt like i had stepped out into another world. Maybe Narnia or Teribethia! With each step I took I felt farther and farther away from this messed up world and closer to something magical, fresh and innocent. If only i could have stayed there forever. I'm so lucky to share adventures with u!

Why d'ya have to be so cute?

Skipping beats, blushing cheeks I am struggling
Daydreaming, bed scenes in the corner caf�
And then i'm left in bits recovering tectonic tremblings
You get me every time

Why d'ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go

Follow you home, you've got your headphones on and you're dancing
Got lucky, beautiful shot you taking everything off watch the curtains wide open
Then you fall in the same routine flicking through the TV relaxed and reclining
And you think you're alone...

Why d'ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go

One of these days, you'll miss your train and come stay with me
We'll have drinks and talk about things, any excuse to stay awake with you
You'll sleep here, i'll sleep there, but then the heating may be down again
at my convenience
we'd be good, we'd be great together

Say goodnight and go,
why's it always always
goodnight and go
Darling not again
Goodnight and go
Goodnight and Go, Imogen Heap

Its amazing how bang on these song lyrics are. I listened to it today and saw you.
Not sure what that says but ya still trying to figure it out. This song it perfect though.
Perfect! Couldn't have said it better.